Different Shades of me

Men: Beware of the dog house

2008-12-14T00:00:00.000-08:00

This is true love and devotion in an unhuman way

2008-12-13T09:00:00.000-08:00

This is probably old news by now but.....no words are needed to describe this video. My heart is forever touched.

Hot Flashes are not so fun

2008-12-12T06:30:00.000-08:00

I know I've talked about this in a blog at one time or another but I'm going to talk about it again because I AM SICK OF MY FRICKEN HOT FLASHES *wiping sweat off forehead*!

I took it upon myself to take me off of my hormonal patches because I know my doctor will very soon. And in return I've been getting hot flashes. Starting with anxiety in the pit of my stomach then a wave of heat following with sweat and hits me like a ton of bricks! Damn it! I am sick of it!

The husband said just to go back on the patches. I said Hell NO! I don't want to start this all over again! Oh, and note this: He said, "You're not using your patches? And you haven't been bitchy? Huh!" I told him, thanks. Dumb husband. LOL

I can't sleep. I freeze at night and as soon as I cover up, I kick all the blankets off cuz I'm burning up! ALL. NIGHT. LONG!

You guys do not know how lucky you are to have a penis and testicles.

Undergoing reconstruction

2008-12-11T07:30:00.000-08:00

I'm a natural "Negative Nelly", as they say. I force myself to be a positive thinker and I try to relay that message to others that have the same negative tendency. When I use reverse psychology I resist temptation of being a complete downer.

I proved that point at work the other day. Without going into detail (I refuse to talk about work on my blog) I tried to convince someone that what they were thinking was NOT in fact the truth. I'm hoping that what I said would help her turn her thinking around. But who's to know. All I can do is try. The more I try the easier it should be for me to start being a more positive person right? I guess I need to hang out with people that have a brighter spirit than me!

It feels good at the end of the day that you did your best to be upbeat and positive. I used to tell myself how much I hate challenges of my character but in all actuality I think I do like to be challenged because I learn something and from that I grow.

I'm so deep. LOL

Staying Strong

2008-12-10T07:30:00.000-08:00

There are very unfortunate things that happen to good people. I've always wondered why? Sometimes when you're young you do stupid stuff and you never think that there might be repercussions that you have to endure decades later. And to top it off you develop other elements that make for more complications.

A family member of mine is going through a health crisis (and it is). I hate to admit that because it's scary. Very scary. I love this person dearly and it breaks my heart that he has to undergo what is in his future.

My hopes are high and my faith is strong. Let's just hope that will be enough to get him through everything (at least for my sense of peace). I know it will.

Unexpected expense

2008-12-09T13:53:00.000-08:00

Whenever I come back from a trip things happen that cost money. Just when you "think" you have your funds in order there's always a bump in the road.

Thank goodness our problem wasn't too much of a big deal. Last Friday I woke up to a soaking wet carpet in my bedroom. The wetness was in a small general area so of course I thought my perfect pooches pottied in the house. Then I thought my golden stole one of my water bottles that was full of water and spilled it. She loves her water bottles!

What happened was our water heater sprung a leak ($600.00 to replace)! It's in the house but you can access it from the outside and it's opposite of my linen closet and clothes closet (a wall separates them).

An adjuster came out today (thus the reason I was so lucky to get out of work at 11am) and said that a little dry out w/i the walls to prevent mold and cleaning of the carpet is needed. There's a huge stain on the carpet so who knows, maybe a check coming from the insurance company? Like I said before it's not that big of a job so my claim wouldn't affect my premium. We'll see.

Well, I completed two things yesterday. One I made flight arrangements to visit my friend Patti in AZ for January '09 and then made reservations for our annual trip to Pismo Beach in June'09. We're going back to Johnson Valley to camp and ride. That trip will be for 5 days over the New Years holiday. I love it so much! I cannot wait!. Our toyhauler is in the shop for repairs. Our cabinet (below) has a splinter(y) crack in it so that's being taken care of.

Note to self: Be careful where you scratch yourself. You never know if big brother is looking!

Watch your step. Literally.

2008-11-19T18:54:00.000-08:00

I came across this video and it shows why we have laws in the US. Having to dodge moving obstacles trying to cross a street "legally" is insane!

I just don't get it

2008-11-17T19:18:00.000-08:00

There are times in my life that I sit and wonder what kind of person am I? I live my life as honest as possible. Sometimes that is not enough. Sometimes it's too much. There has to be some kind of balance. But where or better yet how do I find the balance? I know that I can go to church to connect with my spirit and with God. But then again why do I have to go to church when I can have peace with God any where and any time?

Why are we challenged in areas we don't understand? Why do we have to prove ourselves to people? Why are we judged on just being human?

I am a good person. I have a heart filled with love and compassion for others. But as much as I believe in myself I am chastised and my heart is yanked out of my chest and squeezed until all the blood oozes out until there is nothing left.

There are many life lessons still to be learned for me. Even being middle-aged. Logically, it seems, being honest and having integrity would get you far in your journey but not so. I guess I am going to have to go against everything I believe and be the person I'm not just to get along in life.

What has this world come to?

L.A. on fire

2008-11-16T17:31:00.001-08:00

From the east and from the west there is fire. The fire in the east is the one that is affecting my city. The fire started about 50 miles away and has traveled as close as 15 miles. This started yesterday morning. Many homes lost. So sad. I called my mom in the afternoon and told her it was Armageddon over here. The sun was covered with smoke. I had to close all my windows and doors because of my eyes burning/watering and the horrible smoke irritating my throat.

The husband and I woke up to ash everywhere. Our cars were completely covered. It was snowing ash. The fire is under control but not contained. No more homes have been burned. But there still is the smell of fire in the air.

The fire to the west of me burned 500 homes. It's heartbreaking.

This will give you a little perspective of some of the 500 homes burned. Nothing there. Nothing.

Leave your recklessness at the door!

2008-11-11T14:00:00.000-08:00

Our insurance (at work) is up for renewal. We had all the DMV records pulled for every driver of the company, around 80. Come to find out around 7-10 driver's jobs are now in jeopardy because of DUI’s, accidents, speeding tickets & suspended licenses.

If you value your job, be aware of what you’re doing out there! You have to realize that if you screw up there are consequences down the line that you’ll have to deal with….like your income! Bad times to be messing up people!

This is gross. No it isn't. Yes. It is.

2008-11-11T07:00:00.000-08:00

It really takes a strong and secure woman to talk about something like this! Heehee.

A couple of weeks ago I noticed little black dots in my bed. I didn't think much of it, I just thought it was fuzz or something that had fallen off my dog (who sleeps w/ me every night). As time went on I started noticing more and more of these little black dots in my bed. I picked one up one morning, squeezed it (like a dumbass) and it popped with blood that oozed out of it! OH CRAP! I got bugs in my bed! I pulled down my sheets and found many more and they were moving! Just gliding along in slow motion! Eeeeeek! I picked them all off and threw them in the toilet and flushed them all away, so I thought.

As the days past I kept waking up in the middle of the night to check to see if there were any more and sure enough they were there...every night. I constantly felt like they were crawling all over me while I slept. I thought to myself, could these be bedbugs? Oh please. That's all I need.

I was determined to get rid of them once and for all. I came home from work one day and tore my bed apart. Moved the mattresses, washed all my bedding, vacuumed under, over in all the cracks, anywhere and everywhere. So now I felt good. Yep, got rid of them. Pretty confident. No, really confident that they're all gone.

Until...the next morning AND THEY WERE BACK! What? Damn!

I finally gave in and had to take a "specimen" to work so they can identify what this "little black dot" really was.....I didn't have bedbugs....I had carpet beetles! (I forgot to mention that I work for a pest control company) Thank God! They gave me chemical, told us (husband and me) how to treat and whola their gone! Dead. Whew! I'm a very sound sleeper now!

One more thing. The reason why they were in my bed is because they eat fabric. Duh.

Writers block has plagued my mind

2008-11-10T19:15:00.000-08:00

It seems like every time I turn around there's always something going on. These past two weekends have been a nonstop merry-go-round and I think it's finally coming to a slow stop. Ever since we acquired our new truck the husband and I have been detailing it. That monster requires many man & woman hours of tender loving care. Since it was used, we wanted to get out all the "dirt" that was left over from the previous owner and make it brand new again. Just like how you would clean out a new apartment before you move in. Gotta get rid of any evidence that some else's butt was sitting on the same toilet that your butt will be sitting on...know where I'm coming from? LOL

We're heading out back to the desert over Thanksgiving weekend. We tried to get all the family out there to have Thanksgiving dinner but that backfired. I thought it would be a cool thing for a change of pace and have the whole family enjoy something different and to have fun riding our quads. A couple people in my family are just stuck in a rut. They have no will to adventure outside of their own little worlds. I wanted them to see what I do for fun and to have them realize that getting dirty is a blast! Their loss...they just don't know what their missing.

My mom and brother will be joining us (yay!). That will be so much fun! My mom has always wanted to experience what we do. Go mom!

Halloween Eve

2008-10-30T15:35:00.000-07:00

Has anyone noticed each year differs from the next on the amount of candy you give away? This year we won't be home so we didn't buy any. Too bad I couldn't save all the candy from last year to give out this year. We had maybe 5 kids come knocking at our door. The year before that we ran out!

I don't know if the holiday is fading out or I live in such non-diverse town (mostly hispanic and NOT born in the U.S.) that the people here don't understand anything about the holiday (is it a holiday?) so they don't get their kids dressed up. I dunno.

I don't think I would have bought any candy this year even if I stayed home. Just keep the outside lights off and hope no one knocks. I remember I would be out w/ dozens of friends having a blast! I sure miss those days.

Hope you all have a great Halloween! Boo!

Stuck in a rut

2008-10-29T19:04:00.000-07:00

Freakin' aye. It's been a little while since I've been on. My life has been non stop for the past couple weeks!

The hubby and I went on a long weekend getaway w/ some friends a couple of weeks ago. Went camping out in the desert riding our ATV's and chilling. Always a blast!

The rest of the days have been a blurr. You know the same old crap of running around and never being able to relax. The exciting news is we bought a 2003 Chevy Silverado 4x4. Heavy duty so it can pull our toyhauler with no problem. Our other truck pulled but struggled. It was ready for retirement.

Our hero--->

Our "new" truck is in the shop for some upgrades. It has a 4" lift kit and w/o a step it's a joke trying to climb into it. The husband bought railings so it will be easier to get in...I'm thinking of my mom trying to hop in w/o it...eh...wouldn't happen.

Well kids, I just wanted to let ya'll know I'm still hanging. I'll try to get back into the blogging thing. Until then....ciao!

Party on

2008-10-10T11:40:00.000-07:00

The good thing about today is that it's Friday! Uh huh. Uh huh.

The bad thing about today is that Friday will be over too soon so that means the weekend will over just as fast. Dang!

I've got no plans this weekend. Yay!

But what I really need to do this weekend is pull out my exercise equipment and get moving! I have a mini trampoline that I'm dying to try but it's been so freakin' hot here I haven't been able to use it yet because I don't wanna pass out from heat exhaustion! I would be using it in the garage and there's no a/c....that's my excuse and I'm sticking to it!

I think I'm going to clean out kitchen cupboards tomorrow. How they get dirty inside is beyond me. If someone could give me a logical explaination I'd lick your toes in appreciation.

I'll write a bit more later....

in the mean time......

Do you really think I'd lick your toes? Come on! LOL

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2008-10-08T18:47:00.000-07:00

Things over on my end of the world have been chaotic. Nothing has been stable.

Work has been hell.

Home life is dull.

The husband has been a little cranky lately...must be man-o-pause.

It's time for a vacation!

And that's what we're doing next weekend. It will be our first trip this season to use our toyhauler and go ridin' on our ATV's. We're heading for the desert to get dirty! It will be a 3 day weekend - short but sweet. Really sweet.

We have the joy of taking our toyhauler to a dumping station this weekend to dump our "black tank". In case you're wonderin' (or not but I'll tell ya anyway) the black tank is full of caca and peepee. Yep. That crap (pun intended) has been formenting in there since June. Hope the hose doesn't break when we drain it! That would be really shitty (I couldn't help it!)
Hope you all didn't just eat!

Another post of nothing

2008-10-02T19:07:00.000-07:00

Obviously my life has been on hiatus lately.

I'm just waiting for something to happen so I can write about it. Everyday seems like it's at a standstill. I read other people's blogs and wonder why their lives are so full of interesting (somewhat) dialogs.

Here it is almost a week since I've posted and yet again another debate is on. This time it's turned way down and all I hear are voices but not the topics. I know for sure one thing is Palin's voice kinda gets under my skin. And what's with the Minnesota accent? I keep thinking of the movie Fargo (you betcha) when I hear her!

You know, I decided to write a little only to let my very few readers (oh, poor me) know that I'm still around...my inability to put words together lately has got the better of me! LOL

I'll try to keep up with my posts....I promise!

O Oh Say can you see.....

2008-09-26T19:47:00.000-07:00

I watched the whole Presidential debate tonight. All of it. I was debating myself to either watch it or watch one of my taped programs. I opted to watch. While I was watching I was thinking Go McCain! then on a turn of a dime I was thinking Go Obama! I'm so confused! lol

I'm not going to give my opinion on any the issues that were presented. All I can say is may the best man win and please, whoever it is, rebuild America to the country that it once was!

We will never know what will happen when the new president comes into office. We are just going to have to keep our fingers crossed and hope for the best.

Neighbors in the hood

2008-09-24T19:36:00.000-07:00

You know what's great about living in an unincorporated area? Being able to call the city & request to have a handicap sign posted on the curb right in front of your house and having the curb painted blue so NO one w/o a handicap permit can park there. When I found out that my neighbors did that I was impressed. If our city was not unincorporated they couldn't do it. Isn't that something? I have never seen that before.

We have so many people parking on our street there is no parking anywhere, ever. I live in an area that is 99% hispanic. I'm the 1%. Hispanic people are known for sharing their homes. I am not opposed to that. Not one iota. The only problem I have is the more the people the more the cars. Some families have 4 to 5 cars per household. It gets to be a little tiring when people squeeze their cars anywhere they can alas blocking part of your driveway. That right there is when I draw the line. If I don't see the person that has parked their car blocking my driveway, I have on occasion, written a note warning them if I hit their car while I'm backing out it's not my fault. If I catch them parking there I will tell them not to block my driveway. Thankfully, some of them speak english...I think. LOL

What I don't like about these living arrangements is people coming and going all the time. I like knowing who lives in our neighborhood. It kinda scares me not knowing because I feel if you don't belong in our neighborhood (besides visiting) then what the hell are you doing here? Looking for trouble as I see it. I have good neighbors. I'm pretty much left alone and can live in my house comfortably. My neighbors (the actual owners) look after us. They tell us when someone stops by our house when we're not home so I feel protected. I guess I can't complain too much.

Throw Me A Rope!

2008-09-19T12:06:00.000-07:00

I’m not into the show America’s Got Talent—I’ve never have been interested in it. My husband on the other hand is addicted to it. During the series he’s called me to check out bits and pieces of the show when he feels it’s worth seeing. He called me to see one act Nuttin But Stringz. You gotta check it out. This act, to me, is worth taking a look at. If they end up performing in Vegas I would definitely buy a ticket to see them.

Another weekend is here. Thank God for that. I need a break. After weeks of having plans and not being able to just “hang out at home” I have nothing planned. Yay!

I really need this weekend to relax. Let the stress of this past work week drain out of my body and leave me empty. I have been picking up the slack from a coworker that is on maternity leave. She gave me just one day of her time to teach me everything I need to know in order to help her in her absense. I sometimes sit at my desk trying to figure out what the hell she said about this and/or that. I swear what she told me went in one ear and out the other. I can't rely on my notes cuz I suck at taking notes. And on top of my work, whew! I’m in a whirlwind of chaos! But I do have to acknowledge all that she does. She keeps many things afloat in our department. You never realize how valuable someone is until they are gone.

We are remarkable

2008-09-16T18:52:00.000-07:00

Hey I'm back. From where? No where really. Just haven't been in the bloggin' mood I guess. My brain has been so cluttered and my belly has been hurtin' for a few days. I would just go on the computer to check for any emails then sign right back off.

Last Friday there was a horrific train crash here in L.A. that consumed the TV waves all afternoon and through the evening..you couldn't help but watch. It really upset me and eased my spirit at the same time. It was amazing to see the surrounding community be the first to come out to help the walking wounded and the critically injured by giving them water, towels/blankets and unconditional care...remarkable.

This makes all my problems trivial in comparison. It has me thinkin' about the short life we as people have on earth. I better make the best of my life while I'm still here. Doesn't make you think?

It Stinks

2008-09-11T08:35:00.000-07:00

Is it crazy for me to be picky about women wearing perfume in a confined work environment? In an office with no ventilation (no windows)? I don’t think I am.

If it gives me headache and the smell sticks in my sinus cavity and in my throat am I wrong to feel the need to complain to my manager? I don’t think I am.

The minute they walk into the office the whole place reeks. It lingers and lingers and lingers because the ladies wear perfume not cologne so the smell does not dissipate (quick). Do I have the right to breathe free in the office I work in and not have to put up with it? I think so.

The only problem is my manager, my boss, is my mom and I suffer because of that. Hmmph!

L.A. Traffic

2008-09-08T19:29:00.000-07:00

Even though you have a driver's license doesn't mean you can drive. I cannot believe the DMV passes true imbeciles. There are times I just want to swerve my car right into someone to get their freakin' attention and give them a wake up call. This guy in the car ahead of me was fumbling around looking for something in the backseat holding up the cars behind him. After I was about to blow my top my offramp came up and as I was exiting I passed him and figured out that he was searching for his damn earplug for his cell. Dude, have you ever thought of NOT talking on the phone while in the car? Dumbass.

On another note of freeway bliss when there are two lanes to get on the freeway and then turns into one after you get the green light to enter try not to race the person next to you to get ahead because you will only lose. I will not let you over and will push you off into the ditch. I'm just sayin'.

Echo Man

2008-09-05T21:00:00.000-07:00

My husband heard about this guy on the radio and I looked him up and was totally impressed. I thought I would be kind enough to share it with you people! (Aren't I nice?)

Don't irritate me dammit!

2008-09-05T17:53:00.000-07:00

Everything is irritating me and I am SICK of having to repeat myself. Argggh! I guess I’m just fed up with the bullshit of life (at the moment).

It gets so tiring.

On to another subject: Men. They try so hard to please. I try so hard to be understanding. But they SUCK BIG BOOGERS sometimes! To give you a brief synopsis of the situation I am referring to: I ask the husband to please go out to the refrigerator in the garage and bring in some water to put in the fridge in the house. He brought in the water along with all kinds of other crap (that I did not want in the house) and had the nerve to just put them anywhere and everywhere that he felt fit. The crap that is in the fridge outside is there for a reason! Now mind you I appreciate the little help that he gave by bringing in what I had asked him to do but why does he have to manipulate my neatness and screw up my perfectly organized fridge?! Men should know better than to mess with women's perfection!

5:45 PM

Ok, ok, ok so I get home from work and you know what I find??? A clean kitchen, washed and folded towels. Good God. I can't even bitch about my man w/o having to swallow my pride and post what he did. He didn't even give me a chance to enjoy my little rant that little shit! Well, he can't clean better than me!

The consequences of not being aware of your surroundings

2008-09-02T18:58:00.000-07:00

Can you tell which leg he fell on?

The husband is out of work (AGAIN!) until he sees the doctor next week. Nothing is broken, just a lot of fluid built up.

This is his 3rd fall this year. One more and I'll make his other knee match!

Yep. I have a new template

2008-09-02T07:53:00.000-07:00

No you haven't stumbled upon someone else's blog it's mine. Yeah, it's different for me and I'm ok with it. I have to get used to this design. I had a hard time with my imagination working with someone to put this together. I'm thinking in the near future of redesigning again to really bring out my personality but for now I'm going to stick with this.

How was everyone's long weekend? It was hot HOT here. Just keep me inside with the a/c blowing and I'm a happy camper.

My old man did it again! He fell. Now he's on crutches. We're going to the doctor today to see what kind of damage he did. I'll let you all know later. I keep telling him he's not 24 anymore! Geesh!

Who is this dumb? OUCH!

2008-08-30T06:42:00.001-07:00

To tape or not to tape...hope he's shaved! Yikes! (I stole this pic from somebody's blog bcuz I couldn't believe my eyes!)

Stupid childhood memories

2008-08-29T07:23:00.001-07:00

I was thinking about something to post and started thinking back when I was a kid.

I never got into too much trouble (that I can recall).

Stupid things that kids get into trouble for that could have totally been prevented (now that I'm an adult I can rationalize and manipulate ways of not getting caught! LOL).

Here are some (very) minor incidents that I can recover from my brain and I'm sure they're NOTHING compared to some of my fellow bloggers:

I mostly remember the incident but not the punishment.

--Approx. age 11

I was riding my bike along with a friend. She, I guess, pissed me off for some reason. I screamed at her, "FUCK YOU!" (sorry mom). I arrived home and went into my house like nothing ever happened when I was approached by my father. He asked me what did I say to her? (That little bitch snitched on me!) I wouldn't answer. He told me again to repeat what I said. I was embarrassed (for being caught). I finally I repeated it. That wasn't good enough for him. He wanted me to say it exactly how I said it. In other words, scream it like I did to her. So I did.

--Approx. age 9

I had a sneakiness in me. I'd do things that I knew would eventually get me into trouble but didn't have the common sense or logic to understand the consequences:

We lived in a small apartment at the time and I shared (kinda sorta) a bedroom with my parents (only my belongings were in there and no I didn't share their bed!). That is the reason why I was able to go into their room w/o having to get their permission.

My father had a giant (to a kid) chocolate easter egg (solid not hollow) hidden up way high on the shelf in the closet. I thought I was very clever (not thinking I would ever get caught) and would sneak a little bite here and there. Of course after a while you definitely could see that "a little mouse" was eating away at it.

Time elapsed. Then one day my father went to get himself a slice. He came to me (with anger raging from his eyes) and presented to me the half eaten egg. My little heart sunk. Of course it was me! No questions needed to be asked!

This punishment I remember. He sat me down at the kitchen table, he marches to the fridge, takes out the MUSTARD (you read right), sits back down, pulls out the egg and cuts little bite size pieces. He holds a piece in one hand and w/ the other squirts a little mustard on it and said, "Now eat!" You are going to finish all of it!" I cried and cried and reluctantly ate. Whimpering as I put the pieces in my mouth. I said, "I'm going to throw up!" and he said, "Good, maybe that will teach you from taking things that don't belong to you!"

--Approx. age 8

This was not anything I did that deserved punishment for. I was just a kid being a kid playing with friends.

I was out with a bunch of kids just having fun. I was showing off, I guess, and put a "Hot Tamale" candy in my nose.

This older kid (around 13) decided it was funny and he spit in my face! I ran home screaming and crying. My big brother was infuriated! He used his magical, ingenious mind and knew exactly what he was going to do in retaliation of his little sister who had no defense for herself.

He sucked up the biggest loogie, held it in his mouth, went outside, found that little shit and blew that sucker right into his mouth! Serves you right you little mother f*cker! LOL

Those are just a smidgen of my childhood memories.

Oh, one more thing. As an adult, don't ever, ever talk about things you did as a child (that you got away with) in front of your mother. She will excuse herself and go to the restroom to cry thinking that she was a horrible mother. Not a good idea.

What's with You Tube and Blogger?

2008-08-27T19:31:00.000-07:00

I have been trying to figure out how to post a video on blogger. Damn thing won't work. It doesn't even give you the option of posting. I remember once upon a time I could...damn that sucks! I've been going insane trying to figure it out. Any suggestions?

So the convention is going on. Yeah, it is. I'm not into that kind of stuff although there is one thing that irritates me...it interferes with my programs I watch. I hate when I set my DVR and it records only half my show. Isn't there some magical way the satellites can figure out when the tv schedule is all f**ked up? Come on. Sheesh.

No trips to the ER today. The husband went to work like any other day and is moving on with life. Yay to that!

One more day for me then I'm off on another 4 day holiday. I have no plans just hanging around the house.

I think I wrote this post just to take up space and that I did.

Ciao

A morning in the ER

2008-08-26T17:19:00.000-07:00

We were on our way to work today and the husband said, "Oh my God I don't feel well." I was thinking it was one of his normal episodes of chest pain that he gets, unrelated to his heart and it was thank goodness.

Once we arrived at work I went in and told my mom (who's my boss) that the husband wasn't feeling well and we are going to the ER. So after having a smoke we head out (yeah I know it was dumb especially when he's having chest pain). We went home and picked up his new medication that he started taking last night. He thinks that was what irritated his problem even more.

We get to the ER, told them he was having chest pain and they took him immediately. After many hours of waiting and testing all reports came out that his heart was perfectly normal. I suspected that but you can never be too sure.

Ironically he had an appointment with a cardiologist this afternoon. He took all the reports from the ER and gave it to the cardiologist and he confirmed what the ER said. So why the chest pains? The doc said although he doesn't know much about his condition (low testosterone) chest pain can be a complication. To be sure his heart is fine, they will be conducting a stress test on him in a couple of weeks. To be continued.....

On a humorous side of all this in the ER there was this gang banger curled up sleeping in a bed near us. A few hours passed and I heard one of the (male) nurses talking to him. The dude woke up and was talking incoherently saying, "Where am I? Why am I here? Where's my glasses, my socks, my shoes, my Nike t-shirt?" The nurse told him he didn't know anything but he'll find out.

The nurse comes back a while later and said, "You were pretty drunk. Someone found you crashed on the ground under some bleachers in a park. You hit your head pretty hard so an ambulance brought you in. You've been here since 1AM and it's 9:30." The dude kept on repeating himself, swearing, being pissy because all his belongings were missing. He says, "Man, that blows. Oh shit, where's my cell phone?" The nurse couldn't help him as he knew nothing. This gang banger had to walk home in a pair of pants and a hospital gown. Barefoot. Who knows why he didn't have anyone pick him up. My thought is that his homies just left him there and a vagrant came and stole all his belongings. Whatever. What comes around goes around dude.

Saturday morning

2008-08-23T10:04:00.000-07:00

A dog's life....

Oops, did I wake you w/ the camera flash?

I'm so jealous!

All mashed up..not even the dog will eat it

2008-08-20T07:00:00.000-07:00

My dog, Molly, woke up sick the other morning. Upchucking, diarrhea, the whole nine yards. After a day and a half I took her to see the vet. The vet said she most likely just has an upset stomach. She was checked all over and said she seems in good health. He even checked her pooh to see if there were any signs of parasites. Nope, came out ok.

She's a very finicky eater and even more so now that she's not feeling too well. I've offered her all kinds of things to eat but she doesn't want anything to do with it. Finally I made her cooked carrots and chicken. She ate a little--probably a tablespoon. Last night I decided since she's still not eating I'll make her something she might really eat.

I didn't have any rice to I made mashed potatoes instead with roast beef and carrots--I mixed it all up and presented to her. Well, she turned her nose up at that too! How could any living thing pass up a gourmet meal as shown in this picture? My feelings were hurt after all the sweat I put into this!!

Eventually, with me holding her plate, she ate. Maybe half. I think she's on the road to recovery.

The way I was

2008-08-19T10:08:00.000-07:00

After my husband cleaned out our storage and the boxes of junk have been piled all over the garage he was going through one them and came across a picture of me circa 1979 holding my 1 month old niece.

I'm surprised I have a smile on my face because my boyfriend just broke my heart by telling me that he didn't want to be tied down anymore. He was my first love. I remember how devastated I was--I cried for a year!

Looking at this picture and I'm thinking of how fat I thought I was. I kinda feel bad that I tortured myself about it. I was never thin enough. I was actually one of the biggest in my group of friends. I was 5'4" and about 130-135 #'s. Most of my friends were 5'1"-5'2" and were 100-115 #'s and now I understand why I felt fat!

The day the music died August 16, 1977...

2008-08-16T12:30:00.000-07:00

Do you remember where you were when the king of rock and roll died? I was 15 and at home. I heard it on the news and I immediately called my mom at work.

You still ROCK !

Have you ever dreamt about...

2008-08-16T12:07:00.000-07:00

As I was cleaning up the house today I was thinking of something interesting to post about and I started thinking of my grandparents as I was wiping down their pictures.

Back in 1971 my grandfather passed away. I was 9. It was right at the time that California had one its sizeable earthquakes. My mother flew back to Minnesota for the funeral...it was, for her, a horrific time because of the way he died.

Being 9 years old and not knowing exactly why he died was not in my "child's brain" of comprehension. I'm not sure if I knew exactly what death meant considering I was very sheltered as I was the only girl in a 3 sibling family.

I remember I used to have dreams about him. Well, not exactly him per say, it was where he lived. I would dream of walking into his 3 or 4 story home and seeing furniture covered with white sheets. I remember the cob webs too.

The house that him and my grandmother lived in was an old style house that had a huge picture window in the front. They lived a mile or so from Lake Superior and you were able to see the lake and the Ariel bridge rising up and down allowing ships to enter and exit.

As a child that frightened me. To this day I still remember and it--in a strange way--still does. I remember visiting there when the house was abandoned waiting to be torn down and I was standing on the porch and those erie feelings were still there. And I was 24 at the time! Odd how memories bring back certain feelings.

When my husband's grandmother passed away back in 1990, I had a very similar dream. But it was in the house I am living in now. Why the connection? I've been trying to figure that one out for years.

I'm not scared living here and that dream rarely surfaces. How the two intertwines with each other is having me think I better go to a physic or better yet to church!

Yes, it's the freakin' weekend!

2008-08-15T19:39:00.000-07:00

Time to relax! Finally.

Yes. I'm excited. I'm not really doing anything special. There is a classic car show going on here in Uptown Whittier. I went one year and it was blazin' hot! I was a sweaty bitch and made the husband suffer through my misery. We both decided it would be best for me to keep my sorry ass at home! We have a party to go to after so he'll swing by the house and pick me up. See how smart he is? Keeping me home so he doesn't have to be with a crabby bitch all day.

Years ago I had a hysterectomy and the doc took all my female organs. Then menopause hit. Immediately. Ever since then, I get hot flashes. And when they hit--LOOK OUT and that's all I gotta say about that. I always wonder...will they ever go away?!!! It would really make our lives more pleasant!

Before I go I have an update on situation regarding that incident at work. I noticed that the V.P. has been really nice to me. He never paid attention to me before and now he's joking with me and calling me by my first and middle name. Hmmm....maybe he's scared of me now after finding out that I am one tough cookie when I need to be! LOL

Not diggin' the retriever

2008-08-13T18:49:00.000-07:00

I just have one question and I really REALLY need help with this:

Does anyone know how to stop a dog from digging? I swear to god my golden is digging her way to China--probably trying to get to the Olympics.

When we caught her a few times we've scolded her but obviously that did no good. My husband insists on smacking her one. I am completely against that and if I saw him smacking her I'll smack him right upside the head!

The husband says to fill the hole with dirt and then put poop on top. That's disgusting to me. Guess I'd do anything pretty much to stop it.

Any suggestions? Pleasssse, I'm on my hands and knees begging you!!! (Not really)

I am putting a ban on stickers!

2008-08-12T19:31:00.000-07:00

Well, after work we went out and bought a fridge for the garage, yay! I have one question about refrigerators: Why is it that guys love to put stickers all over it? What's up with that? Is it some got forsaken testosterone thing or what? And what's with the naked pictures on the walls? The husband wants to put up naked girlie pictures and put them in frames. Does framing make the women look more classy? I don't think so. The old garage had girlie pictures all over the ceiling and ya wonder why my husband's friends always had kinks in their necks! But you should have seen how the young boys reacted when they saw them....I have to admit it was hilarious!

Ok, back to the fridge....

I told the husband that I'm going to regret having it because I'm probably gonna to buy even more crap that I don't need. At least we'll have drinks for the guys when they drop by and they won't be walking in the house with their dirty, stinky shoes.

At work...day two...All is well...The wife not speaking to me.....and my heart is not broken....

Anyone have a knife?

2008-08-11T18:43:00.000-07:00

I really needed one today to cut the tension. I think it was just me though. The person whom I had the spat with didn't look too happy. Maybe because the curse I casted (?) upon her worked and she got sick over the weekend. Ha! I asked a colleague if she felt any tension and she happily said "no". That is what I was the most concerned over. I guess it was just in my head. I'm sure tomorrow will be better. *Fingers crossed*

Tomorrow I am getting a new refrigerator to put in our new garage! I'm so excited. I needed an extra one for a very long time. Even though there is only two of us in my household I seem to over buy. I love to stock. It's a thing I have I guess. I have a little fear of not having something when I want it. The sad thing about that is I don't want to use anything. I LIKE seeing it there. I know I'm weird. I think it's my mom's fault. In my earlier days I used to like scrounging through her pantry just to see what she had. I'm over that now, kinda. LOL!

I'm a self-proclaimed snooper. I love to see how people live and maybe I can steal some of their decorating ideas. I love to look in their fridge and pantries too! But I will NEVER OPEN A MEDICINE CABINET knowing that it can be boobie-trapped. Yeah, I know that trick!

Keep outta trouble people! Ciao.

A quick addition to yesterday's post

2008-08-11T07:59:00.000-07:00

Just to fill you in....the owner's wife was a peon. She works in our Data Processing Dept. She is the one that pursued him. They only married 1 1/2 months ago. And in my mind she is still a peon....but a rich one.

I have to say it's real hard to change your feelings towards someone just because they married the owner...but I'm trying.

Sunday at the boss's house

2008-08-03T19:36:00.000-07:00

The boss's wife had a candle party at their house today. I wasn't sure if I wanted to go because I hate these kind of parties. It really depended on how my husband felt (he's doing better thank you). I called my mom this morning and told her to pick me up and we could go together.

I felt bad because only a small crowd showed (maybe about 7 ladies). Out of 5 women in our office only my mother and I showed. Gotta suck up a little as per my husband! LOL!

The boss's wife, poor thing, has no friends. I already knew that since I've been told a thousand times over in the past 13 years that I've known her. She was ok at being the hostess. She's a little strange with her nervous giggles and her antsy movements.

Being at the boss's house was very strange. Something didn't quite jive. The strangest part about it is that HE was there! It just felt a little to intimate I guess. Anyway, we were only there for about 2 hours (which was long enough) bought a couple of things, ate and said our thank you's then hit the road.

Oh, the house was really nothing special like I thought it would be considering this guys a millionaire. I went home and looked around my house and thought I had way more stuff then they did, although their "stuff" probably cost a gazillion more dollars then mine.

Who ever thought of this?

2008-08-01T18:52:00.000-07:00

This is way out there.

We have this fast food restaurant chain here in Calif. called In-N-Out Burger which only serves burgers, fries and drinks. You can have your burgers made any way you want and have as many patties on your burger as you want. I've heard of people stacking 9 patties on one bun! Unfreakin' real. I usually get a"Double-Double" which is so delish.

Not on the menu is some kind of concoction that somebody made up and by word of mouth found its way into its own revolutionary recipe. The fries are called "animal fries" which consists of the following ingredients:

Fries
1000 island dressing (their secret sauce , which is not so much a secret)
lots of gooey cheese and
grilled onions

Somebody MUST have been pretty drunk or have some kind of crazy ass mind to think of that. When I first heard and saw it I was pretty disgusted. Why would anyone eat something like that? Gross.

My husband's curiosity got the better of him and decided to try it himself. As I was watching him eat I was becoming curious. I finally said, "Let me try it dammit!" I didn't care for it. Nope. I wasn't impressed. Then I took another bite. Before I knew it I realized that it had grown on me and I actually liked it.

As a matter of fact, I had some today and it was very tasty. I don't normally get animal fries but now and then I say , "What the hell?" Right?

Last day of the month

2008-07-31T19:11:00.001-07:00

I thought this month would never end! So much has been going on in my personal life and the turmoils of the world it just seemed like a rollercoaster ride. This ride continues month after month. It's neverending. It really boggles my mind how we as people can pick up the pieces and go on with life. Things always turn out ok. I live by that philosophy. It doesn't matter whether it's a natural disaster or just a twitch in the system we all seem recover.

Sometimes it takes super human strength to get through it on our own though. Sometimes it takes another person who is blessed with the ability to help others to be there for you and give you the strength that some people might need.

I live my life through negativity. I am not proud of that. Negative thoughts ponder through my mind on a daily basis. I fight that all the time. Constantly. I've never felt good enough as a child. I've never felt good enough as an adult. Nothing has ever really been the way I wanted it. I know I could take my life in my own hands and change things around but that's when the negativity comes into play even more. It's kinda like russian roulette.

I am the only person that I'm negative about. When it comes to the people I love that's where I'm positive. I will give every ounce of positive energy to that person to make them feel worthwhile. As long as the person allows I will continue to pass along positive words of encouragement. And the bottom line is is that it will all be ok.

I know I have to practice what I preach. I think to myself when tough times happen in my life I wish that I had someone just like me to be there by my side to walk me through and tell me it's going to be ok.

The day after

2008-07-30T18:34:00.000-07:00

All is calm in the wonderful world of earthquake country. Everyone went on with life like nothing ever happened. The only evidence of any earthquakes were mentioned on the telly. I've been hearing that the earthquake might have been a part of the Whittier fault line which is the city I live in. That makes total sense to me of why it shook so hard.

We have a pea"hen" (female peacock) that has been hanging around our work for the past couple of years. She's been living in our avocado tree. She was so freaked out with the quake that she flew up onto the telephone pole and was sitting on the wires. A couple hours later she flew down and now no one knows where she is. It's kind of a bummer because I would sit under the tree at breaks and lunch and she would fly down and hang out with me. I sure hope she will find her way home. It's kinda lonely without her.

We had a very kooky day today at work. Just one of those days where people were just in a pleasant mood. We all had lunch together and joked around. It was a lot of fun. It took my mind off of my husband who has not been feeling well for the past few weeks.

Ciao!

Oh yes, Cali was a rockin'

2008-07-29T18:26:00.001-07:00

Today was just a normal day. Sitting at my desk talking to some people casually. I started feeling what felt like big trucks driving by (which there is because there's a lot of road construction going on on our street). The rumbling started gradually getting worse. And then the big BANG came and everything was rocking! I thought it would never stop! OMG I thought my world was coming to an end!

My work is probably about 7 miles from the center of the quake. This thing literally scared the crap out of me. I froze. People told me that I looked white as a ghost. Color started coming back into my face an hour later.

I immediately called my husband. All the lines were tied up. Of course everyone in the So Cal area were calling their loved ones too. Finally I was able to reach him and he was fine. He was at home babying an illness that he has. He really thought this was it. Not because of the earthquake, just because of the way he has been feeling.

No damage at work. Nothing fell off shelves, no broken glass. I came home and found pictures all crooked, framed pictures on my dresser were knocked over and on the floor. Crazy. It was a magnitude 5.4...if that makes any sense to you all.

This was certainly a wake up call. It's been 14 years since we had our last major quake. I'm a bit jittery but I'll calm down. It's only a matter of time until the really big one happens. Yikes!

I need a little pick-me-up and I think these boys did the trick!

2008-07-28T20:11:00.000-07:00

Cool me off boys....cool me off!!

LOL

An update on Heartbreak

2008-07-24T19:41:00.000-07:00

Just to let ya'll know on a previous post "Heartbreak" the dog in question found a good home. I'm very thankful for the folks who took in him.

This is Charlie the day he wondered in to our work. He now has a home, had a bath and a nice brushing. Have a happy life Charlie!

P.S. I would have linked you to that post but I'm a little retarded and can't remember how to link it. Sorry Patti, you tried to teach me. Ho hum.

husbands and moods

2008-07-24T18:58:00.000-07:00

You think I'm talking about husband's moods? No. I'm talking about the wives. Women. Actually just me.

I am generally talking about my husband. It's not exactly, purposely his fault for putting me in a pissed off mood. He really doesn't do anything. It's this illness that he gets that no doctor can figure out.

We thought he was "healed" with this surgery he had but obviously the surgery only took care of part of the problem.

I get pissed because not knowing what the f--k is wrong. I get pissed because I have no control over the situation. There's nothing I can say or do except bitch to him to continuously go to the doctor until they figure out what is wrong with him.

He did go in today. The doctor sent him to get x-rays and blood work. I'm hoping that something will show up just so we have some kind of answer.

But that still leaves me in a very foul mood. I know it. I feel it in every bone in my body. I just want to rip someone's head off...if I was only allowed to. I feel it in my belly. The stirring of anger that feeds off the lining, just gnawing and gnawing. I can't get that feeling to go away. That I know is because of the unknown.

I wish I could handle this a different way. But you know, my husband is a unique kind of guy. He doesn't get normal illnesses. A previous doctor said it's not "text book". I know why it's not text book it's because the page with his illness probably was torn out of the book to wipe someone's ass after they just took a crap.

Back to reality

2008-07-20T19:26:00.000-07:00

Company has come and gone now it's back to reality.

Had a real good time with my girlfriend, Patti and my godson, Nick. Always a bummer when they leave because the trips are always too short.

The husband added new shelves in the garage. Nick and him were putting them together yesterday as Patti I went shopping. The husband loves to have Nick around. Now that Nick's older the husband loves to teach him different things. Nick is very good at tearing things apart and putting them back together (at least try to), huh Patti?! Typical boy.

We started moving things out of storage. Truck load by truck load. Can't wait until we don't have to pay the ridiculous rental space fee anymore.

Gotta get myself ready for another round of Big Brother. If anyone wants a link to a spoiler page go here.

Back to work tomorrow after a 4 day weekend. It's always hard to get back into the groove.

Heartbreak

2008-07-16T19:04:00.001-07:00

Having a heart hurts. Literally. Caring hurts. Literally. Holding back tears hurts. Literally.

I have a big heart. One that has love and compassion for the canine species.

I've always loved animals. Cats and dogs. Even exotic birds. But more so for the canines. In my childhood I only had one dog. I was around 8 or so. His or her (as of this moment I cannot remember) name was Cookie. I will refer to Cookie as a him. Unusual name I know. I was a kid and guess that was the only name I could think of. I didn't have him for very long. Got him as a pup for my birthday. My father was supposed to bring home a kitten as a surprise but instead he brought home a puppy that he picked up at a shelter.

We ended up moving into an apartment and had to get rid of him. My father took him to the Humane Society. Dropped him off like he was throwing away trash. I don't remember any of this only stories that I was told.

Throughout my adolescence I never owned another pet. But from afar I loved and adored them. When I started dating my husband we acquired a golden retriever. His name was Casey. I never knew what a joy it was having a pet. The husband raised him from a 7 week old pup. He was adorable. He lived until he was just a month and a half shy of 14 years old. He died of cancer. That was my first experience of that kind of heartbreak I've ever felt.

We adopted 2 more golden's after Casey. We tried to give them the best lives they could have.

During that time we adopted a mutt named JJ. She looked like a miniature german shepperd. Smart. Protective. Loving. An alpha. I raised her from a 6 week old pup. She was my life. I loved her more than anyone could imagine. Only those close to me knew. We had the privilege of having her in our lives for 10 years. Then one horrid day we came home and found her dead behind our shed in the backyard. Don't have a clue what happened. The husband and I were devastated. We were heartbroken.

After JJ passed we immediately searched in every shelter in 3 different counties for another dog. Not a replacement. But I needed another pet to fill my heart with the love that I so missed and longed for.

A few weeks later we were headed for a shelter and as we were driving down the street I noticed there was a pet adoption going on across the way. We immediately made a u-turn and that's where we found Molly. She's the sweetest little pup. We love her dearly.

A little over a year ago we adopted our 4th golden retriever Shiloh. Oh what a holy terror she is. But we love her. So now we are one big happy family.

Today at work I went outside in the morning to talk to my husband and next to him was a golden retriever. He was very reserved. He was very well trained. I asked the husband where he came from and was told he followed one of our workers as he was walking towards our driveway.

The poor thing did not look in very good health. I'm sure with a good bath and a medical check up he would be fine. He's an older golden. Fat. Extremely fat. We brought him into our warehouse and tied him up hoping someone would be scanning the streets looking for him. Nothing. The day ended and he was still tied up in our warehouse (the door was wide open all day so people can see him if they were looking). The owner's wife took it upon herself to take him to a "no-kill" shelter after work. She called me up later and told me that she asked them if they were a no-kill and they said no. Especially because he's old. What? Whatever. She said she will bring him back to work and put up fliers...maybe someone would claim him. I'm hoping that no one will. Even though he was nice and plump, he was also matted and scroungy looking.

My husband looked up on the internet for the golden retriever rescue that we got ours from and left a message about this pup and we are waiting on a return call.

Everytime I would look at this dog I would get tears in my eyes wondering why is this dog in the shape it's in and why on earth isn't anyone looking for him? People were saying to me that they think he was a drop off. I don't know. All I want is for him to live out his last days in a good home with loads of fun and loads of love. I cried all day as my heart ached for him. I'm so happy that I'm off the rest of the week because I know I would end up taking him home...and I just can't because of room and cash flow.

I really hate having a big heart because it hurts so bad.

Titleless

2008-07-15T19:57:00.000-07:00

One more day of work and I'm off for 4 days!!

This past week has been miserable. Hot! Humid! Thanks AZ for allowing your monsoons to come over our way. Tomorrow should be the last of the humidity. Then the real temperatures will arrive. By the beginning of next week we should be up into the 100's. Much cooler. You know, the California "dry heat". It's still freakin' hot!

Hate.
The.
Heat.

I had the honor of reading a memoir (sorta) that my brother Craig wrote. He is a superb writer. Very talented. I keep insisting that he should start a blog. She said that he didn't want to share his life with anyone. I told her that he could write whatever he wanted. It's his blog. I said he should share all his short stories with people and get opinions and/or feedback. It would boost his ego (and his writing skills)!

I always wished I was talented at writing. So many things go through my head that I would love to share but I just don't have the energy to figure how to put it into words. Sometimes when I sit down to write I'm at a blank then I read other people's blogs and get a little envious because they're so talented. Maybe one day I'll put things together and just go for it. Someday.

We won!!!

2008-07-14T19:04:00.000-07:00

Today is a good day! About a month ago I posted an entry talking about being disallowed on the husband's disability payments. We appealed the decision and hoped for the best. Well, the best happened as we received the check today! Hooray!!! I guess the poor sobbing story we sent touched their little ol' hearts and they thought he deserved it. Hell yeah he did! Sometimes the system really works!

The weekend is over

2008-07-13T19:29:00.000-07:00

Where did it go? I swear I went to bed Friday night and woke up to Sunday. Saturday just vanished.

Today is Sunday, I think...or was. I spent most of the day getting my hair colored and hi-lighted. It's pretty dark. But I like it. For some reason I feel I look better with dark(er) hair.

The husband put up the cabinets in the garage. His help came today and they put in the attic ladder so it's coming along. I'm still trying to earn some storage space in there. In California we don't have basements...sure wish we did then I could leave the husband alone about "intruding on his turf"! But we don't so oh well, he'll just have to except me barging taking some over.

Back to work tomorrow. I have family coming out on Friday...I'm looking forward to it. I think I'm going to take Thursday off too so I can get some shopping done before my guests arrive.

That's it for tonight. Have a good one ya'll!

We're on our way

2008-07-10T18:45:00.000-07:00

Not a whole lot going down on my end of town. Now that the storm has past it seems like things will be smooth sailing from here on out.

We got our final inspection done and over with. It's been, oh god, 9 months since the contractors broke ground. You would think the cabinets would be in already. You would think everything would be in it's proper place. Not even close. Our new contractor aka "the husband" is moving like a tortoise with bricks on his back. No, I'll give him a little credit here...he's worked hard on trying to get the garage ready for the inspector.

Now that it's ok to do what we want, the husband cut open the ceiling to put in the attic ladder (which was not in the blue prints). We'll probably get the cabinets in this weekend (or at least purchased). We'll see.

Can't wait until it's all done. My back yard is a hell hole. I have never seen it so torn up. We need a makeover. Definitely. Someone needs to come to my house and fix up my yard. The only thing that sucks is I have a one year old golden retriever that loves to dig! We try everything to stop her and nothing seems to work except for putting her shit in the hole. So I'm afraid when we get our yard looking half way descent, she will start tearing things up. She's even tearing up our planters!

Later gator

Blessed

2008-07-08T19:34:00.000-07:00

There is a time in our lives that things happen that we're not sure of. Sometimes we have no control and it gets very frustrating. It's hard to understand why. I have been through my share of hardships.

My thought process is one of wonder. I wonder why things have to be the way that they are. I wonder why God doesn't lead us in the right direction. But, logically, I know the answer. You see, God does lead us but it's us that has to decide whether we're going to listen. It starts out in a whisper...and then the whisper gets louder. We have the choice to hear..but we refuse...and when we finally decide to listen the noise is so loud it knocks you over...and then we wonder why?

Maybe it takes a good knock in the head to open our eyes and see. Life lessons are simply that, lessons. Maybe some day we all can learn our lessons and continue living a happy and flourishing life. I see myself now with my eyes wide open. I see myself not being the selfish person that I easily can be. I will have a more open mind and will continue loving the people in my life...and I am totally blessed to have the family and friends that I have.

Just like old times

2008-07-06T21:16:00.000-07:00

Remember drive-ins? Remember all the crazy things you used to do at the drive-ins?

I believe there is only one left in the So. Calif. area. At least in the San Gabriel Valley.

Yesterday, there was one more.

A group of friends gathered together at a mutual friend's house and made it a night at the movies.

We gathered all our hot rods together (excluding ours since it's "under the weather") and lined them all up for pictures. Another friend of ours brought his scissor lift to take ariel shots along with ground (I guess you can call it) shots.

Reminiscing of old times, we had a concession stand full of chili dogs, chips, sodas, beer, etc., etc. When night fell we all gathered around with our lawn chairs and sat back to watch the main attraction. Before the main feature, we actually watched a Tom and Jerry cartoon. Can you believe that? It was so incredibly awesome. Of course the only movie that we all agreed upon was the classic "American Graffiti".

When the movie was well on its way, the hosts came around with buckets of popcorn for everyone. It was as close to going to an actual drive-in movie as it could get. Big screen, cars, the only things that were missing were the box speakers that you attach to your car and the hispanic ladies and children walking around to each car passing out little trinkets and then returning to either collect a donation or to take their trinkets back. (I guess only in California you would see something like that.)

Just like when the movie was over at the drive-in, we left immediately after--guess it was instinct--gotta get out before it gets too crowded!

Good memories. Good times.

The "Rods"

"My mug"

"The husband"

Enjoying the movie

The movie...looked much better in person

Pool play - doggie style

2008-07-05T13:10:00.001-07:00

The 4th

2008-07-05T09:38:00.001-07:00

Hot day yesterday. Indeed.

We headed out 45 miles to Moreno Valley for a great bbq with many friends and fantastic conversation. Our friend's house was across the street from a park that provided a firework show. It lasted only about 20 minutes and it was not anything that was very impressive. Glad it was free otherwise I would have thought it was a waste of money.

Before we left we locked our dogs in our bedroom in fear of them escaping our yard with of all the noise of the fireworks. We weren't sure how our golden would handle since this is her first experience with all the noise. Poor pups, they were locked up for 7 hours. After coming home they were antsy. Of course! I knew that. I would be too if I was cooped up all that time.

When we left the party we got stuck in all the traffic from the firework show. What a fiasco that was. Not only that but trying to help men with directions getting back to the freeway is not a good combo for husbands and wives. It could be a reason for divorce I swear. We would have made it out fine without getting stuck in all the traffic but nooooooo, the husband decided he would rather waste a half hour by not listening to his wife directing him. I won't get into all the details because it would just get me irate again, but take it from me girls: DO NOT HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH DIRECTIONS...IT WILL SAVE MANY THOUGHTS OF HURTING YOUR SPOUSE and you just might still be friends later.

Tonight we have another party to go to and it's going to be like old times. I'll tell you about that in another post. Until then.....

My reflection does exist

2008-07-02T19:37:00.000-07:00

When I dragged myself out of bed this morning I went straight to the bathroom, relieved myself and walked to the sink to wash my face. I looked up and saw my reflection so I know I exist.....that has been the question of the day:

AM I ACTUALLY VISIBLE TO OTHERS?

Didn't seem like it at work today. The non-existing feeling I had only lasted for about an hour or so but I sure was pissed off about it.

A (few) things I hate while at work:

1. Asking a question and getting a smartass answer.
2. Waiting for someone to come in to ask another question and this person is a 1/2 hour late (as always).
3. When that person comes in her sister is immediately in her realm (her sis works with her obviously).
4. Trying to decide whether to interrupt their non work conversation.
5. And when I do, I feel as if I'm being intrusive.

OK, so I let it out to a confidant at work and I felt much better.

BUT.......

I was getting it from the husband too! On the way home from work I let him have it and told him about my day AND that HE was just as guilty!

I swear I must be visible only to me! My voice must be silent although I hear myself talking? As it turns out, the hubby has not been feeling too great today so he has been taking it out on me....so I guess I'm NOT invisible.....I'm just a target! Dumbass.

Cha Cha Cha Changing

2008-07-01T16:46:00.000-07:00

Something came out of our meeting at work last week that will probably have an affect on my professional and personal life.

We were all given a book to read. It looked like a child's book. The reading is very simple, the fonts are big enough so I don't have to wear my glasses and it's only 96 pages. Took me about a full hour to read (I am NOT a speed reader!).

The book is very cheesy and the name is too.

It is called, "Who Moved My Cheese"

Here's a synopsis of the story (well, maybe a little more since I'm chatty on occasion).

It's about change. It's about excepting change with the attitude of looking forward to bigger and better things. It's about being reluctant to change.

There are four characters in this story. Sniff and Scurry, the mice, and Hem and Haw, the littlepeople--beings who were as small as mice but who looked and acted a lot like people today.

They all ran in a maze looking for cheese to nourish them and make them happy. It was a labyrinth of corridors and chambers and some contained cheese. Then there were others that were dark and with blind alleys that went nowhere.

All four of them ran in the maze and found the cheese. Everyday they would go back to find cheese in the same corner. Until one day there was no cheese.

Sniff and Scurry shrugged their shoulders and went on through the maze looking for more cheese while Hem and Haw stuck around the same corner waiting for cheese to reappear.

After a long time had past, Haw decided to venture out and look for more cheese, but he was afraid. Hem was absolutely uninterested in venturing out because he was afraid of what was out there.

Haw felt the same way, but decided instead of starving he was going out to find his nourishment. Along the way, around every corner, he left many messages on the walls in hopes that if Hem decided to grasp his fears he would be able to find his way to new cheese. Some of these messages were:

"Smell the cheese often so you know when it is getting old."
"Movement in a new direction helps you find new cheese."
"When you stop being afraid, you feel good!"
"Imagining yourself enjoying your new cheese....leads you to it."
"The quicker you let go of old cheese, the sooner you find new cheese."
"It is safer to search in the maze, than remain in a cheeseless situation."
"Old beliefs do not lead you to new cheese."
"When you see that you can find and enjoy new cheese, you change course."
"Noticing small changes early helps you adapt to the bigger changes that are to come."

After Haw's venture out, he found the new cheese! And you know who else was there? Yep, Sniffy and Scurry. They were kicked back with their tummys nice and full. Haw was estactic! But a little sad because he wanted Hem to find it too.

Haw realized how far he had come but knew it would be easy to slip back into his comfort zone. So each day he would inspect his new cheese to see what kind of condition it was in. He was going to do whatever he could to avoid being surprised by unexpected change.

He would go out and explore the maze to stay in touch with what was going on around him.

Then Haw heard noise around him. The noise was getting louder and he knew someone was coming. Could it be Hem? Haw hoped and prayed that it was him. Maybe Hem got over his fear and was finally able to.....

Is this the end....or just the beginning?

Good story? I really think I've learned something already. I'm in between Hem and Haw. I am reluctant to change. I think it's because I've been with the same company for 28 years and am used to the same ol' same ol'. I'm comfortable but bored. As much as I hate to admit it, I'm ready for change. In my professional life and personal life.

Thank God for this book. It just might do me some good. Hope this story does you good too!

Ciao

Hands free

2008-06-30T19:29:00.000-07:00

All you Californians out there better remember that tomorrow is the new "hands free" law. No more talking on the hand held cell phones.

People here have been raiding the stores to get their Bluetooth's. I ordered mine online. I was the smart one! Hehehe!!

If caught with the phone stuck on your ear while driving the first offense is a stiff $20 bucks after that I don't know but I'm sure it goes up. No points on your driving record though. **Update** The fine already went up to $76 bucks.

Kids under 18 that drive cannot use a cell phone PERIOD. For that I am grateful. Maybe this will reduce car accidents by a great percentage.

Stimulus Shimulus

2008-06-30T19:18:00.000-07:00

Got our check today. Finally. Guess we're the last ones to get it. Pretty nice huh? Bush wants it to go back into the economy to get it going again. Yeah it will. At least for us.

The check will get deposited right into our checking account and it will be absorbed into our every day lives. Is there ever a time that I actually get extra money and do something "fun" with it. Nope not me.

Every quarter we get a hefty bonus at work. Does that go into our savings? Nope. Right into our checking and again gets sucked into our daily lives. Oh, except I give the husband 1/2 of his and he can do anything he wants with it. Why half? Because that's what HE agreed to.

The only time we actually can plan on any extra dough is when we refinance the house. We took a good chunk out in September and by now ya'll know where that went to. The friggen garage (which is STILL NOT FINISHED Dammit!). Thank goodness we still have a lot left over for improvements IN the house. That's what I have hoped for.

If a diet post is boring for you, skip this one.

2008-06-28T20:47:00.000-07:00

Holly Hell!

This calorie counting really sucks. I mean really. C'mon man. Having to account for everything is hard work. Really, really hard work! Have you tried it?

Talk about accountability. Yeah, I wanna be accountable. That's why I signed up for my weight mgmt. class.

According to my weight and height the instructor put me on a 1200 calorie regime. That is pretty much (from what I hear) the lowest caloric count you can be on without your body "thinking" it's starving.

I have been counting since Thursday. Looking at all the labels, fat grams, etc., etc. It's torture! And to top it off, I am hungry!

I'm drinking tons of water to fill me up. I don't care what people say, drinking water does NOT take place of eating! I am up to my eyeballs in water. It makes me pee too much to.

Tomorrow I will be going to the market to get items that I need. I'm a little low in the food dept. right now since I haven't shopped after getting back from vacation.

I'm a great vegetable eater. Not so much in the fruit dept. though. Bananas and apples are about the only fruit I eat.

This for me is all about the learning process. I enjoy these classes. I just wish I could hurry up and know everything so it all comes easy for me.

I will soon enough.

Disallowed? Dammit!

2008-06-24T18:57:00.000-07:00

Yesterday we got a letter in the mail from the EDD stating the husband's disability insurance claim has been disallowed.

DISALLOWED?

Evidently we mailed in our claim after the eligibility time expired.

Why don't they just send a letter back saying you're screwed! HA HA! YOU ARE SCREWED. We get to keep the money and you don't get a freakin' cent of it! You fools!! Hahaha!

Let me back up here a little:

The husband had his surgery back in March. We filled out the disability papers immediately. The head nurse was in charge of mailing out the forms to EDD. Weeks past and there was no evidence of acknowledgement that the Disability Dept. received them. We called numerous times to the doctor's office and was first told that it was mailed. Then we were told it will be mailed again. Finally a week ago or so I mailed my copies hoping they will accept copies and not originals.

So now we filed an appeal. I made damn sure we sent it within the allowed time.

Yeah, I was pretty peeved. After all it is the husband's money...we have NO choice but to contribute.

Wish us luck on our appeal. I think we will win this because obviously it was not our fault dammit!

Back from vacation

2008-06-23T19:23:00.000-07:00

We got back safe and sound, thank God! Our poor little truck had a rough time climbing up those grades! The husband made a stupid move by trying to adjust the side view mirror and almost took us over the edge of a freakin' cliff! If it wasn't for my girlfriend (she was sitting in between us) grabbing the wheel and steering us straight we would have!

We got back late Saturday afternoon. We did that on purpose so we had an extra day before going back to work. The plans were to empty out the trailer but as it turned out, we just lazed around all day.

Sunday before we left the husband slipped on the kitchen floor (which had my dog's leftover drool on it) and fell right smack on the dog dish. It's one of those dog dishes that are in a container that stands about 4" from the ground. I heard this GIANT thump and he was laid out on the floor on his back. I was screaming at him because the way he was holding his arm I thought he broke it! (I always seem to panic when he does things like this.) He just ended up hurting his back. Severely. I thought our trip was going to be cancelled. But he said he was still up for it. He went to the doctor the next day and they gave him all kinds of prescriptions and told him to rest which of course he didn't.

The area we went, Pismo Beach, is in central Calif. Nice and cool. We were at a campsite about a block away. Beautiful. Trees all around. Nice and shady. But of course all of California was in the middle of a heatwave! Even at the beach! L.A. area was in the 100's. Pismo was in the 90's. Horrible. I don't know how you Arizona people handle the heat. I was bitchy, moody, sticky and sweaty and there was no sex involved at all!

And trying to ride our ATV's, dressed up with all of our gear (riding pants, helmets, goggles) was out of the question. We rode for like 45 minutes and that was it. The rest of our trip was putting our chairs in the water and just chill.

My dogs loved it though. Especially my golden. We played and played in the water until I had to pull her out! She even pooped in the water! I saw her trying to do it and I ran (against the current) as fast as I could to pull her out but I think I was too late! It was a funny scene.

All in all it ended up being fun. Always sad to leave. Wishing we had one more day.

I'm off on vacation!!!

2008-06-17T07:47:00.000-07:00

Talk to ya'll when I get back!

Ciao

Adios

I'm outta here...see ya!!!!!!!!!!!

Congrats Diane!

2008-06-15T10:53:00.000-07:00

My little "sweetpea", Diane, just graduated from college yesterday. She received a BA in something that has to do with computer forensics. I never did ask her what the official title is called.

Diane is our friend's daughter. We've known her since the day she came out of mama's womb. July 4th will be her 23rd birthday.

We went over her parent's house and had a little party to celebrate with friends and family. Fun times.

It's amazing how time flies.

I'm pretty sure she'll be going back to get her Masters. Really smart chickie I might say. The husband and I are really proud of her accomplishments.

I know in the very near future she will be marrying her boyfriend, Mitch. They are a great match and sooooo in love.

Congratulations sweetpea! I know you will have a wonderful life!

A Re-Awakening

2008-06-14T08:30:00.000-07:00

"This post is for myself"

A revelation came to me this morning as I looked in the mirror.

I told myself that this is it.

No more feeling down about myself.

No more feeling sorry for myself.

No more being disgusted with myself.

I'm going to accept my demise and lift myself up.

Be strong and forget the downward path I was taking towards my weight and continue on an upward path.

This is another battle I will conquer and

I AM GOING TO WIN!

Warning: Venting of my weight issue ahead!

2008-06-12T19:05:00.000-07:00

I was in for a rude awaking yesterday at my Weight Mgmt. class. Last week our instructor weighed us and yesterday she gave everyone their BMI, calorie count, fat count and BEE count. BEE=Basal Energy Expenditure (I have no freaking clue what that is).

I left class in a state of unbelief that I let myself go the way I did. After all the hard work in getting myself into shape it came down to being totally disgusted. Who's at fault? ME! Who puts the food into my mouth? ME! I'm ashamed.

I'M PISSED OFF

Who's the only person that can fix this? ME! And I will. This is the wake up call I've been waiting for. I've been too lenient on myself and the weight crept on. The dirty, nasty weight. I know exactly how it crept on. I know exactly how to stop doing what I'm doing. It's actually pretty easy to reverse this.

What I absolutely hate is: counting calories, fat grams, proteins, carbs, etc., etc. I despise that. Again, that's what accountability is, right?

Vacation is coming up on Wednesday. Usually I always say, "I'm on vacation" so that means I can eat whatever I want. I know my friends out there have heard me say that. It seems like I've been on a very long vacation! LOL

The convenience of food is my downfall. I enjoy cooking, when I feel like it. NOT, when I have to. I'd much rather get something out if I could and I know I shouldn't.

I'm happy that I'm doing something RIGHT NOW before my weight REALLY gets out of hand.

This is going to be a lot of work. Lots of reading and figuring. I wish it was easy. I guess if it was, I'D BE SKINNY!

One week later

2008-06-10T18:39:00.000-07:00

Being accountable in what you eat is a very disturbing analysis. As per my dietitian, I have been keeping track of all food and drinks that go into my mouth.

Now I've tried doing this many times before, but to no avail. I got bored, depressed and even cheated in my food "journal" (I put in quotes because to me it's not a "journal" it's just a list.) Cheating in a food journal is like cheating on a test. What good does that do but sabotage the whole purpose?!

Tomorrow will be one full week of this. I am surprised at myself and how mindless it is to just pop this or that into your mouth.

I followed exactly what the dietitian said to do. As she said, "Do not change anything you eat so I can evaluate your patterns."

When I lost all my weight a few years ago, I was extremely diligent in my routines. They say it takes 21 days (I think) to break a habit or create a new one. I'm hoping she'll tell me something I don't know. Maybe I can get myself back into my old mindset and really change the way my brain thinks.

All I need is a little push. And then I can quit the damn food journal.

The smasher; the mammo experience

2008-06-09T17:58:00.000-07:00

Went and had a mammogram today.

Yep, went.

Always a pleasant experience.

Yep, pleasant.

It hurt more today than any other time I went.

They smashed. They twisted.

Let's begin,

Put your arm up and hold on to this whatchamacallit. Turn your body facing the machine. Turn your head away and look up--make sure your chin is up. Uh-huh. Ok, don't breathe! Gawd, whatever you do, don't BREATHE! *Snap!* Now breathe.

Ok now let's do the other boob, uh-huh, twist again. Hold your other boob and keep it out of the way. HUH? Now, don't move, don't breathe! *Snap!* Now breathe.

Gotta get that nipple in place. Ummm. Now, again, don't move. Hold your breath! *Snap* One more nipple to go!

You're all done. It wasn't that bad was it?

Well, in my opinion, putting your boobs in a vise creating a pancake is not something I want to do anytime soon.

And that's my smashing experience having a mammogram.

D-U-L-L is the word

2008-06-08T19:20:00.000-07:00

Saturday:

What a dull weekend. You wanna hear about it? Sure you do!

Did the same 'ol same 'ol on Saturday. The husband in the garage and me doing chores.

It was a little warm out so I filled up the giant kiddie pool for Shiloh and she couldn't wait for it to be filled! She was in it the second I put it down..water wasn't even in it yet. She swam all day long. By the end of the day the water was mud!

We went out to dinner then to Walmart. We come walking out of the store and there's this hispanic woman in the parking lot selling tamales. Sounds good, I know. Tamales are yummy but you will never get me to buy them. My reasoning is because who knows how clean she is. Or how clean her kitchen is. She could have a roach infestation and I would never know it. Working for a pest control company I know the filth out there. I'm just very leery when it comes to that. At least the restaurants here are checked by the health dept. and get graded. Those grades are what I go by in what restaurants I go into.

I don't like people trying to sell me something outside of the store I just came out of. I just spent all my money--in the store. Why would they think I had extra cash AFTER I leave. That just irritates me. I give her credit though. I don't think I would ever do that even if I did need the money.

Sunday:

I decided to give the dogs a bath. Actually, they gave me a bath. What fun that was! I really mean it. I sat my chair right in the water and played with them as I was washing. They splashed, ran in and out chasing each other, back in the water. It's always a joy to watch them! After their baths we dried out in the sun.

Later we ate dinner and had a couple of chocolate chip cookies for dessert that I bought at the store today. They were like homemade. Very delicious. A few minutes went by and the husband comes in and tells me Shiloh ate the rest of the cookies. Six of them. And they were not small. She got herself in trouble. The husband was not happy. Don't mess with the husband's cookies! Now I have to keep a very good eye on her to see if she gets sick because dogs are not supposed to have chocolate. I'm not sure if we should either! LOL!

Ciao!

A little bit of nothing

2008-06-06T19:40:00.000-07:00

The garage is all painted. Looks like we'll be starting on the floor. That's some other kind of paint that resists oil spills, gas spills, etc. It's really been a hectic week. We're hoping to get this done before we go on vacation June 18th.
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I went to my first "Weight Mgmt" class this past Wednesday. This class is not a weight loss class. It's to teach you about nutrition, exercise and to understand how to maintain being healthy. It seems like it will be well worth the 9 weeks. I'm hoping that what the instructor has to say will help me along in losing a few pounds. She says if you follow the guidelines in this class, you will never gain another pound. In fact, you will lose and be at your natural weight. (Hope I didn't confuse anyone.)
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We have had a fish tank in our office for many years. Somebody (the VP) unplugged it a few days ago and the husband and I came in this morning and two of our biggest fish, and I mean big, died. The husband was pisssed. He took care of them all this time. Poor guy was bummed out all day. Who knew that fish would make you feel that way! (I was a little bummed too!)

Being a little too comfortable

2008-06-06T19:30:00.000-07:00

When the husband and I started dating, we had manners. I mean real manners. Ya know the kind that you have around your mother. I remember when we were first dating how the husband would open the door for me. We would walk together holding hands. Treat each other with true respect.

I remember when we would go to the movies and would be standing outside waiting to go in, the husband would walk away from me and then come back like nothing. I never thought anything of it......

......and now it's 26 years later.

How

Things

Changed!

The husband told me, "Don't you realize the reason why I walked away from you when we were dating? I went to release "air". Yep, I'm going there. He was polite enough to go away to fart.

Oh how I miss those good 'ol days.

Anytime, anywhere I get the joy of hearing and breathing wonderful poop air! Aren't I the lucky one. Hey, I always say what comes around, goes around. So, I have joined in the symphony of farting. I don't have any remorse for it. If he could do it, I could do it right?

Why didn't we hire out?

2008-06-04T09:15:00.001-07:00

You know what I hate? Painting. Actually priming. Don't like it and never will.

The arms hurt
The hands hurt
The neck hurts
The feet hurt
I just hurt.

Now I understand why people hire out. They don't want to go through all the crap!

I told the husband at the beginning of this project being oh so ever enthusiastic, Oh, I'll help! No problem! Yeah, that was a stupid thing to say. Dumb ass! LAMO!

I even went as far to say way back at the beginning of this that we don't need to hire anyone to drywall---what's a little mud and tape and sanding?

You know what?! I didn't know what the hell I was talking about. And hell yes we hired someone to do that! It was w-a-y over our heads! No wonder these people get paid so much for it. It's a shit load of hard labor!

The dogs were out in the garage with us. And guess what? They're all full of paint! Wanna know why? It's because they decided to play! I told the husband to put them out in the yard but noooo he never did and now my pups look like they aged 10 years! (white paint ya know.)

At least I finished priming the last two walls. Tonight the husband will be painting the rest of the ceiling and as much of the walls as he can.

I won't be helping..I get a break...I have a class to go to...what perfect timing!

Directions are for the birds

2008-06-02T19:35:00.000-07:00

I love my new phone! Directions suck big boobies! I really hate having to read them. I'm too impatient.

All I want to do is to use my phone.

Most of the time I tell my husband to read the directions for me AND THEN tell me what to do. Is that typical of a woman? I don't know but I know it's typical of me.

I programed all my #'s and speed dials, thank god. Now I'm putting pictures to the #'s which is interesting because I've never done that before.

I was reading the directions during my lunch hour today and I almost fell asleep. I dread it.

I bought a new alarm clock yesterday and read the directions in a snap and it actually works.

You know why it was so easy for me? It's cuz the directions were on one page! It was written simple so it was simple to do.

I'm usually very good at putting things together. Just by looking at it. But directions? It's for the birds!

Busy day

2008-05-31T19:38:00.000-07:00

This was a very long day. The husband went outside at the crack of dawn to start on the garage. A little sanding and cleaning up to get ready to texture.

I came out around noon to help. Of course I had to clean up the house first.

A few friends came over just to hang out for awhile.

We masked off everything. Covered the hindges, springs and such with newpaper.

The husband started the ceiling first and around the garage door.

After our friends left we got down to business. Get your minds OUT OF THE GUTTER!

I wanted to learn how to texture so he "allowed" me to try it. Guess I was so good I did two whole walls! Go me!

Yeah, we finished. I knew we would. The husband was not going to stop because he wants to primer and paint tomorrow.

Here's some pics of us hard at work.

Guess you're suck with just my pictures. The husband's would'nt upload. Oh well.

The follower

2008-05-29T20:04:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I went to the doctor.

My doctor that I had for years moved on to more exciting venues.

I followed my "old" doctor to his new location a few years back because I had a very good rapport with him.

His old office was not even 5 minutes away. His new office is 10 minutes away.

The extra 5 minutes really makes a difference. Especially coming from work. I have a much more congested route to take to get there.

I was gone from work for 3 hours just because I wanted to keep my "old" doctor. And now the stupid ass isn't there anymore!

It really sucks.

My new doctor is a young, vibrant lady. I really like her. It's a refreshing change to be able to talk about girly things and have her understand.

Do you think that if I ever move, she'll follow me? I doubt it.

I'm not a virgin anymore!

2008-05-29T19:15:00.001-07:00

What a break through. Today is the first time I ordered something over the internet. Horray for me!

It was time that I updated my cell phone. I went online to check out what kind of phones my current provider has and decided on this:

I saved a whole hell of a lot of dough doing it this way. I never knew how easy it was! Look out internet world, I have arrived!!!

I'm pretty stoked about this phone. I always went for the buy one get one free deals. I finally got something that I wanted! Now I'll be able to catch up with my speed in texting. Maybe I'll be able to keep up with you, Patti! Well, probably not. LMAO!

I'm supposed to receive it through Fed Ex tomorrow. Dude, I'm so excited!!

All is quiet

2008-05-27T19:53:00.000-07:00

Nothing going on.
Just the same old song.
Of dogs playing and barking,
and running all around.

Hopefully tonight they'll have a good restful sleep,
and tomorrow will be like today just in repeat.

Neosporin and a kiss

2008-05-26T13:48:00.000-07:00

After the extra hired help finished up the drywall in our garage today, the husband decided to do a little work of his own in there. As some time past, I heard what sounded like a ladder being moved around which I didn't pay any attention to because that's something I hear a lot lately. But the sound continued and then I heard a big SLAM! My dogs jumped up from my bed and looked outside. I thought to myself, "WHAT THE HELL? THAT DID NOT SOUND NORMAL!"

I flew open the screen door and ran outside heading towards the garage. I started hearing moans. And there I saw my husband lying on the floor! I kept saying, "You stupid ass, you stupid ass! What the HELL happened?!"

He was just lying there with his eyes closed. Flat on his back. Many scenarios where going through my head. Did he break his back? Is his head cracked open? Do I see blood running from his skull? Is his arms or legs broken? How far up was he from the ladder did he fall? Do I need to call an ambulance? Will he miss work? He just got back to work from surgery. He can't be out again!

All these thoughts went through my mind in a matter a seconds.

I knelt down beside him and didn't want to touch him fearing I would hurt him not knowing where he's hurt.

And then, he smiled. And kinda chuckled. He said he fell off the FIRST step as he was getting down and tripped on a can of paint!

I wanted to smack him for allowing my heart climb to my throat and my stomach flip upside down.

The only injury that is visible is a 3" scratch on his right shin. That's it! He'll survive. I put a little Neosporin on it and gave him a little kiss.

I'm sure I'll hear about it for a week until it heals and I'll get to tease him for being a baby. But it all goes hand in hand with having a 3 year old as a husband! Waaa!

Sunday, fun day

2008-05-26T13:23:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a very long and cold day at the BBQ. Even though there was a 40% chance of rain, people still came out to enjoy the fun!

People drank. A LOT.

Some of our very own die-hard drinkers ended up down and out because of the kamikazes some folks were passing out.

Speaking of down and out, that is NOT something you want to do around our group of friends. Once your ass is kicked by alcohol and you let loose of bodily functions YOU. WILL. NEVER. LIVE. IT. DOWN. And that's why my friends, I don't drink! HA!

Why the new guy got fired from Dairy Queen

2008-05-26T13:17:00.000-07:00

This actually disgusted me. --Barb

Just another day

2008-05-24T20:23:00.000-07:00

I am now into the 2nd day of my 4 day weekend. So far I've been busy piddling around the house.

Yesterday I did my normal cleaning of the bathrooms and just picking up around the house. Same ol' stuff. It seems like it never ends. I'm sure I'm not the only one that feels that way.

Today we went to Mira Loma (about 35-40 miles away) to pick up our toyhauler that had been stored at a friends for a couple of months while our garage was being built. What a sight for sore eyes. I missed that damn thing! LOL

We were able to pick it up just in time because every year our friends have a big Memorial Day bash. Our friends have a 1/2 acre of land for their backyard and it's just perfect for all their friends. Oh I'd say about 100 people show up.

We helped clean up the place (a little thank you for the months of storage). We washed down the long driveway. Set up the easy-up awnings that will provide wonderful shade. Or shelter from the rain (never thought we'd need it for rain since it's May and we NEVER get rain in May!).

There will be a band, volleyball, horseshoes, swimming and bbq's. It's a tradition. My mom, and her two girlfriends are going and my girlfriend Priscilla. This is the group of people we go to Pismo with. Four more weeks until then!! I'm so psyched!

After coming home from Mira Loma we went to eat and then to Lowes to pick up a new vacuum. Our vacuum is a piece of trash. It's worthless. We spent a few bucks more and bought one that we investigated on the interent. The one feature it has, and we so desperately need, is that it picks up pet hair. With our golden and our other dog there is hair everywhere. We tried it out tonight and it really works well. I'm hoping that this vacuum will last.

Guess I bored you enough. Time for me to shut down and head for bed.

Adios.

This is it

2008-05-24T16:45:00.001-07:00

After deliberating a while I finally chose my new blog name. It's more me.

No longer, WOW! What a day! I have evolved!

Silly huh?

Stormy weather

2008-05-22T18:47:00.000-07:00

Truly amazing! Whoever said we never get tornadoes in So Cal? This is ONE of three that struck this afternoon (both pictures are the same one, the biggest of them all). I posted different angles so you can see intensity of it.

I know it's in no comparison to others that do devastating damage and kill people but nonetheless this one did damage of its own kind. It toppled over train cars and a big rig. It went right over the freeway during rush hour traffic. I don't know the condition of the man in the truck but he must have past out from fear!

I'm sitting at my computer and the skies are now clear. You would never suspect that storms passed by all day. We expect more tomorrow and Saturday. I guess we're not out of the woods yet.

Never did I see tornado warnings on TV. Never did I hear of precautions to take. EVER. We are only told how to prepare for earthquakes.

Is this Armageddon? or just a strange "once in a lifetime" phenomenon in So Cal? Hmmmm, makes you wonder.

To my surprise

2008-05-20T19:18:00.001-07:00

Ok so yeah, I actually thought of a new name for my blog. I received ZERO help from ya'll so I had to work on it myself. Sure my brain hurts--it took a lot of it to finally come up with something.

I will soon rename it so be patient. By this weekend I will have it up and will notify ya'll via email just to let you know it's me.

These past five or six days have been for the birds! It was H-O-T over 100! By this weekend it will be in the '60's! Big difference, which I appreciate.

Anyone have plans for Memorial Day weekend? I took Friday off so I'll have 4 days of relaxation!! So looking forward to it!

See ya on my next post. Chill.

What's in a name?

2008-05-15T19:11:00.000-07:00

I am thinking of a new name for my blog. I was in a hurry to start a blog so I just typed in the first thing that popped into my head.

I have been thinking and thinking but my mind is a blank.

I read other people's blogs and can't believe how clever they are with their names. I just don't have either the energy or brain power to come up with something. I'm just hopin' that one day it will come to me.....

I lived!

2008-05-14T19:28:00.000-07:00

Well, the gyno appointment came and gone. Love my doc! He's the bomb! LOL

I had a couple of issues that I needed to address and he eased my mind. So, I have 364 days left until I see him again, hopefully.

But dude. He really got on my case about smoking. He's been on my case since the day I met him six years ago. But this time, WHEW, he was adamant. He gave me no lecture. Nor did he preach (don't know if there's a difference in those two sentences but they are both accurate either way). He just talked to me and suggested medication to help. I was telling him that it's not the "nicotine" that I will have a problem with, it's the psychological part that scares me. I even got teary eyed *sniff sniff* because it scares me so much. The problem is is that I LIKE to smoke. I'm 46 years old and I know what it's doing to me. But folks, you gotta understand, it's been in my life FOREVER it seems.

I keep blaming the husband. I always say that having someone in my household that smokes, well, I'm doomed. I know he wants to quit but he's scared too. And I'll tell you this: he was already on anti-depressants and it did not work for him. Maybe cold turkey. NOT for me. I will scratch anyone's eyes out if I had to quit cold turkey. I've tried it many times already and I know me.

Tomorrow (as I was instructed by my gyno) I will make an appointment and discuss this issue with my PCP. My PCP is also my husbands so maybe we can all work together and conquer this monster.

It's a very scary, scary thing for me and for those of you who never had a habit like this I want to say that it's WAY more than just a habit.

This post was not supposed to end up on this subject. I never intended it to go where it went. Guess that's what "blogs" are for. Just thoughts.

Smile

Spread Eagle

2008-05-13T18:35:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow is just about here. The dreaded gynecologist appointment. Yep, gyno. The big "G". GY-NE-COL-O-GIST. The Big Scraper. The let's talk to distract me while I'm being inserted with a thingamajig and whatever else is being done doc.

A whole year has past by already.

Three.
Hundred.
Sixty.
Five.
Days.

Fifty.
Two.
Weeks.

Yep again, it's here.

Cantcha tell I'm looking forward to it?

Work party a success?

2008-05-11T19:42:00.001-07:00

I thought so. Even tho being a small crowd that it was it seemed like everyone really enjoyed themselves. It was the '40's theme. Quite a few people were dressed for the era.

There were a lot of activities going on. We had a casino that truly was a blessing for the husband, I'll tell you what (as the famous Hank Hill would say! LOL).

There were prizes for the top producers of the company (cash prizes), tenure acknowledgements and as you can see I am proudly displaying my 28 years of hard, hard, dedicated work plaque. By the way this thing is huge. I have to carry it with two hands.

Raffle ticket drawings which I won a basket full of coffee, mugs, cookies and $100.00 gift certificate for a local grocery store here in town.
There were prizes for karoke, swing dancing and the biggest winner was in the casino games and that's where the husband comes in. He won $14,400.00 at the end of the night--fake money obviously--he ended up as the grand prize winner!! Way to go honey!!!
Yep, had a great time!

2008-05-11T19:38:00.000-07:00

Happy Mother's Day mom!

Had a nice day with the fam minus my nephew, Chris. I made dinner and we all chowed down. We just sat around and chitchatted & did a little reminiscing.

Always thankful for family days as they don't come that often.

Where'd you come from?

2008-05-10T12:14:00.001-07:00

To my astonishment, I find this little booger hanging around my broken down aviary. Unbeknownst to me where this critter came from. I live in the city and we do not have these anywhere around. I gave him a couple of squirts from a water bottle and was able to shoo him away. I haven't seen hide no hair from him since. Crazy.

Saturday, garage and stuff

2008-05-10T07:28:00.000-07:00

Well, here it is Saturday morning. At 7:15 am the the crew is here to put of the last of the drywall in the garage. The only task left after that is to put in the garage door and we're done. At least with the contractor. We had to hire additional helpers to close up our brick fence that was left open because our old garage was a part of the wall and to do some extra work that was not included in our original contract.

The last of what we (husband, me and friends) have to do is texture, paint & add cabinets. This garage is pretty big. It's 675 sq. ft. The husband is pretty happy that he has his "dream" garage but I gotta say I know there would be no limit on the size he would want. There's just no funds for his imagination.

Finally next week we can bring our toyhauler home. It's been at a friend's house. I sure miss going out on trips.

Soon we can get our stuff out of storage. That will save $245.00 a month. I feel like I am just throwing that money away. We've paid out approx. $1,500.00. I do not want to think about what we could have done with that. Geez, that sucks!

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Tonight is our company party. I was opposed to going at one point because I was angry with the way people ie: upper mgmt, was treating employees. I still am not happy but for my mom, I'll go. I'm just hoping we will have some turn out. I know there is a lot of people that are protesting. Rebelling. However you want to put it. We will see. All I can say is there's a better chance of me winning prizes and from what I hear they're pretty nice.

Ciao

If only it were true

2008-05-09T19:05:00.000-07:00

I read this quote today which made me think.

"I feel thin. Isn't weight like age? You're only as thin as you feel?"

UGH

2008-05-09T07:00:00.000-07:00

I woke up this morning like every other day,

wishing I didn't have to work for a living!

Alone time

2008-05-08T19:24:00.000-07:00

Being alone. By myself. No one else but me. On a weeknight. An out of body experience. I don't know what to do with myself. It's been so long. There's so much I can do but I sit here at the computer blogging.

I could be watching TV.

I could be out walking my dogs.

I could be reading a magazine.

I could be sleeping.

I could be sitting outside enjoying the sunset.

I could be giving myself a pedicure.

I could be shopping online.

I could burp as loud as I want.

I could fart and not be harassed. (Sorry mom)

But I sit here typing away on my blog. I enjoy it. I really do.

The only noise I hear is my ceiling fan twirling 'round and 'round. Birds outside chirping. Airplanes flying overhead. Train whistle's blowing. I can't believe I'm alone.

And what's funny is I'm not lonely. Not one bit. I say bring on alone time!

I love a nice scented candle

2008-05-06T19:34:00.000-07:00

For the days you just want to sit and enjoy a scented candle....I give you this:
Kick back, read a book and inhale the wonderful aroma until you cannot any longer.

Privacy Plaheezze

2008-05-05T10:53:00.000-07:00

You think I would get some privacy?! Geez!

I'm here at work. Trying to find some stuff on the internet. You know, personal stuff..people keep walking around me..doing things that are irritating me. I think it's work related but I'm not sure.

Don't these people know that I'm trying to do some personal work? Don't they know that they're just getting in my way from doing it? If they just kept seated I will finish what I'm doing and then will get back to work. Ahem, real work.